To the friend that got away

I’m not sure if you will ever come across this post but I’m going to write it anyways. Since the last time I talked to you I feel like a coward, like I’ve let you down. But I often think of you, hoping that you are doing well. Every now and then when I see you post on Instagram or Facebook or Snapchat, I want to see how you’re doing. I wanted to congratulate you on your new relationship too, but I was scared to message you. I saw that you got into another accident and I hope you are okay.

What happened last year, it’s hard to forget. You were broken and I tried to be there for you but I was only pretending to be whole when in reality, I was broken myself. So when you went down I got dragged down with you. I’m still broken and I’m trying to fix myself. I’m sorry I couldn’t and cannot be there for you then and now. I know you say you are trying and I really sincerely hope that you are getting better each day. I hope that you found the person that is willing to be by your side and help you and guide you when the darkness takes over. I hope that one day in the future our friendship can go back to how it was. But until then I hope that we both can heal ourselves before we try to heal each other. I hope that you are doing well. I hope that you know I still care.

I hope you the best until we talk again.

Ali